DXM Eccentricities

How to be cool:

A) Make the sunglasses face

B)

 Here's the index. Today is Tuesday, May 15th at 15 after midnight

Here's some owl photos.

Hey! Have you watched Big Mouth yet? Its on Netflix. You gotta watch it. It's hilarious. Here is the link again.

I think I may bust out another prepaid chunk of credits on the AI site and fry again. It sure seems like what I want to do. Hopefully I'll start before 3am this time. I'll definitely up the dose. Last time i dosed and briefly discussed it on Questionable.  I did 300mg that time, thats 10 tabs, and stated in my notes that I was gonna do 18 this time, which is about mid level 2, last time was a 1-2 ridgeline dose. The mid plateau 2 is supposedly 547 for 190lbs. i used to do 2 bottles which is 700mg, and would have a blast, so i don't know why i'm overly cautious. just better safe than sorry. FYI, 700mg is just under a mid 3 which is 800mg. (of note is that I didnt do it, nor on the night following but assuming i get through a few things i'll either do it today, 5/17) or tonight or if nothing else after my sushi commitment for this thursday or friday.

There's a dry thunderstorm going on to the east, it's quite fun to see the sky  light up here and again. Im listening to Treat Her Right, which is Mark Sandman's band prior to Morphine. He sings and plays a 2 string slide bass.

I loved speaking with you today, and yesterday. I'm finally coming into my own enough to act like i was before i got jailed, that really traumatized me and caused a regression of sorts. It helps that you're so reassuring . It is interesting to me that no one, other than you, knows the inside me, and everyone is your sister and tom. your sister only recalls what she needs to in order to extract or try to extra what she wants, because i told her quite a bit, before i realized her angle, and tom, i've told some things to but he doesn't listen he simply replies with words that allow him to continue the story he wants to tell, even if he's told it before, which he can't recall because his mind is always ahead in his story not paying attention to what's coming out of his mouth but he watches you to make sure that you're looking at him to ascertain if you're listening, so i can't be me, cuz he'll say are you listening, because i don't like listening when i  look at people in the eye cuz it takes too much effort and i can't concentrate on listening. since he's not telling the story with any intent upon listening to you or your input, it makes listening a lot easier because i just have to recall the subject title when it comes up again so i can reference its general content to prove that i've  heard it which does not register with him because he's not paying attention to what i say anyway. So you're the only one who knows me, and by the time you get to here you've read enough to make me blush at what i've already said. But i figure, even without that comment in the first ramble after Epitome, that you knew, but don't worry, i'm harmless,  i promise. and then, its also nice to have that out, even if it is unsettling to me, and hopefully, for the time being it stays without mention. I think i'd melt in embarrassment if it was brought up

Briefly:

I put up a bunch of art finally. Here's some owl photos, as well. My 3 halloween ones from the word nightmare are nifty in a way. Thye eyeballs i did just for the header on this page, using the same pattern of adjectives and modifiers as the other two, being "Love, art" and i uploaded photos of my own to get the AI creations. i actually did a bunch like that, and some turned out fairly good. I stole the idea from another guy who consistently scores well, i mean hey good artists copy, and great artists steal, i believe i read that somewhere plus there's a button that says "try this".

Music, I love Go Betty Go, it's a new band that i stumbled on, i love the spanish, their an LA act i believe. and Sumo Cyco I just adore, her voice is unique and catchy, plus its a SOAD cover and i totally dig them. THen Jack white is the masked one, and he's an all time favorite, especially his band, The Dead Weather, with alison mosshart of The KIlls. Then Finally we have hank, mr rollins, of black flag fame, and a prolific writer, his books are just awesome, so is his spoken word, i saw one show on halloween one night when we were frying on mushrooms and we timed them to just as we are parking they start to hit and people are in costumes and i remember not knowing if they were in costumes or if it was the mushrooms, man that was a great spoken word, he's my favorite solipsist. i used to have a  shirt that says I'm a solipsist and so am i. if you dont know its the theory that since you brain composes reality all that one can really be certain and prove exists is oneself. as in i don't know you, i know what i know about you and it composes you in my reality but since it's really only part anda  small part of you, the you that exists to you doesn't exist to me and so therefore the only true thing i know is me, the rest are just computer icons like representations of what is real. dreamy huh. Speaking of dreams, i had atrippy one last night where i was making out with two of my old science teachers hot daughters and they were both cool with it but a guy from a different time in my life wasn't and he was always trying to talk me out of continuing my dual sister drama so he could hit on one but i wasn't having it lol