Website & Loads of Random 

 Here's JUST the posts of the month of June. Today is Saturday, the 10th, 4:15pm (Now it's Tue, June 13, 2:02am, Actually it's now Thursday, June 15, at 2:19am) and I'm barely through the intro that was supposed to be short with the Idaho Hot Springs afterwards but now I may not even get to the springs until next article, oh well) but I won't be finishing this one for a few days, I just wanted to get it started. I  know I've put up a lot and I don't expect you'll read it all, but if you're reading this one and haven't read the one preceding it  (not the other one I originally referred back to but a new one) then you should do so. I thought it was pretty good. It even had some humor in it.

I got a couple of things I'll say and then i'll put in a break and do the main course, the continuation or conclusion of the Idaho hot spring soliloquy. I'll try to remember to mark them a little by bolding some key words and using dividers so that it's easy to skip to the content you ant to read and pass by the stuff that doesn't interest you. I think it's better that way.

First off, I wanted to say a couple of things about the website and our long texting session yesterday. I put a little more effort into the website.  I implemented the changes you mentioned, like removing money references,  removing the feng shui bit (even though I think you're missing the point. Nobody wants to pay $35 for something they don't understand. The idea isn't to make money off of it directly but if someone wants it then you do.  Plus no one else in your industry does that and people in nyc or la get thousands to do it, and you only want $35. But I digress, the idea is to  have something you can give away for free, and even have the price on their bill and add a discount in the same amount, and say because I know you'll like it or because it looked like it needed it and i couldn't just not give you one of the most important things i do, or some other sales pitch. People are more likely to not really see what you did if you did anything but they'll not speak out because that admits ignorance and they think it'll make them look stupid so they'll assume you did a lot and whatever all ya do is twist a plant to face the light, adjust the way a lamp sits, and throw a 30¢ quartz crystal in the plant. Tell, them people always compliment you on the way it really does make the house feel better and have more positive vibrations and i know you'll want that... you get the point. Have a read on what it actually is, it's all basic) I removed the eco-friendly bit and added a bit about aromatherapy in a couple places, oh yea, and I customized the form i built and added that in there so they don't have to leave the site to send you a message. It'll send an email to info@cm.com which is just an alias for solea@cm.com (you also have support@ and a couple others, you get 10 and they all just are an alias of solea@, i can add as many as you like up to ten, it's super easy) for each individual submissions as they are generated  also the form will CC to cm@gmail.com and then every 100th submission the csv file that's been collecting the data as its get submitted gets email to you also but it goes to a third address as well, soleal74@gmail whatever the one you gave me was a while back. Eventually i'll have it send a  text message to you and auto upload the completed csv files to your google drive space for archival and backup purposes, but that's what it does now. make sure to let me know if you want it on its own separate page, more options or any changes and I can implement those. I wrote the code rom scratch, using the ai to debug what was going on. I had to learn a little javascript and some php and brush up on my html basic coding to get it done. I'm not happy that it opens a new page to get you back to the site but from what i've read that's a 'feature' of google sites. Turns out, sending a text is super easy, most carriers have an email address especially for that, i tested it and it works. nifty. So that's a brief bit about what i did to the website, it's all updated so if you go see the site, its there. Again, i can modify anything. The text i replaced may not be worded that well, but I'll wait until i get the list in order to tackle that. and by the way, you can just scribble notes on a piece of paper and text me a photo of the paper if you don't just wanna use notes or your email app, your call; i'm easy, and you can let  that get around lol

About our conversation the other day (Friday the 9th I think).  I wanted to say it was nice chatting with you, i really do enjoy the candor. It really means a lot to me. There's a reason why I don't have many friends and that's because i can smell a rat, and most people smell like rats. With Monica I saw that she was in no position to judge and had led a similar if not harsher life that I had and that was my cue that she can be trusted, and i needed that. I've learned the limitations of what i can trust her with and been able to modify how she takes advantage of my nature so that i find it fun to hang out with her. Plus I had been having issues with my heart for a while (2 months at least) and it was because of her that I went to get it treated and that basically saved my life. No matter what she does, I owe her for that. YOU also did something that saved my life as well. I think it was the  first time Monica and I had gone to your trailer and the topic of conversation had turned to my my medical stuff, without even knowing me, you stood up and took her and my head off by telling her (and I'm paraphrasing) "What the fuck? You let him not take care of himself? What the fuck is up with that?" and then addressed me similarly. I was blown away and impressed by how straight forward you were, and not only that, but you weren't just being a bitch ('just'— see what I did there? teeheehee) but you gave me the impression that you really cared. And that took me by storm. I've always had a problem with people caring. I got taken away from the people that cared about me when i was three (my grandparents, mom's parents, the Spencers) and I had to live with people that only cared about themselves and set me up and just let me be alone. I had  no interaction, hardly any conversation, ever, I was left to my own. So when I got to be in my mid 20s, if I was watching TV and even a commercial came up where there were loving people especially people, parents, loving and caring about a child, I would start sobbing, i mean the incident at age 3 was compounded by the story of when I was 8 and got to see my biological father and he got embarrassed by the site of me and turned away and didn't care. he didn't know how, i am sure, i mean i was born out of wedlock, but c'mon I was 8 i didn't know that i just knew that he didn't love me and as far as I could tell my parents didn't either. So I was alone. I was living in south Louisiana, where i was basically the token white kid. My neighbors hung out with me sometimes but they didn't know my name so they just called me "honkey" or my supposed friend, Vaughn, called me "crack-duh" because he was too stupid to be able to pronounce "cracker" let alone recall my name. I told this story in my autobiography, I won't go into any further details, it hurts too much and as it is i can barely see through the flood of emotion. Needless to say, I was moved by someone caring about me. Monica getting me or telling me to go to the hospital, that was about control and me owing her one. I could tell. You didn't have that angle. You cared. And to be fair, I imagine that it wouldn't matter who I was, you care and you'd react the same way. But such an overwhelming percentage of people only fake caring because its social norm to do so, or to look good or for control, to get a favor down the line, it's all just self serving lip service. So many people are that way. It was nice to have met a person who was real. I pride myself on being real, and being honest and having those values at my core. I don't lie. There's never anything to gain by it, plus, I learned quite a while back (when I was going through AA actually) than keeping track of your lies and who knows the truth and who gets what lie, all  that shit is a pain in the ass to keep up with. I'd much rather give my brain a rest and be as honest as possible. It just makes sense.Anyway, without you saying that I wouldn't have started back on the road of being mindful of my medications and actually giving a  fuck enough to take them. It was just that one thing, other wise I think I was ignoring them  just as a chickenshit way of committing suicide. For some reason that turned the tide on me and I started to give a fuck. someone cared. How cool. It was possible to care about me, i just had lost sight of that. or something. but anyway, i never did  get to talkin about the damned hot springs. I'll hafta get to that  next time.

But, one question before I let this note fly… What's the one thing that's a total buzzkill? LIke a dude comes walking in, fills out his jeans well, great hair, whatever the marks are, he hits all of them, but then you notice ______ and no fucking way, you just can't do it? I know for a lot of people i've posed that to, ladies, at least it's been shorter guys, that's apparently a big no way. I can go either way on  that. Part of my type is shorter, but mostly everyone is shorter than me. No, but for me its teeth, well that and cheesy 5th grader tattoos, missing teeth isn't it, it's the snaggle tooth and ferns growing on the surface with three week old cheeseburger still hanging on, coupled with a bad smile, nope, can't do it. And as with most things, there's flexibility there, especially if the tattoos are awesome. And tattoos,, that's the one thing, i finished my bucket list right after my fortieth, and so I had to have something on it and I decided that it was hooking up with a lady with more tattoos than me. (And come to think about it, Dallas had more tattoos than me but man she stood me up that time at the pizza place and that was  actually the second time, except because she didn't confirm the other time, i blew it off, it's still hurt though. Then she said we could do it another time and tried to pay for my dinner and she blew me off on the 19th, she set that one up but didn't follow through and man i had been chasing her since the 7th grade, but she finally broke me, we don't hardly talk anymore. Otherwise she hits a lot of marks, but i had never been stood up before, ghosted yea, but thats different, waiting at the fucknig bar after we confirmed like 3X in a row, fuck that bullshit, no one needs that in their life but she would have been that bucket list cuz she's covered in tattoos, head to toe, and a tall one, quite the hot mix,, but i digress) Something about a lot of ink, especially good ink, that really floats my boat. and you know, it's like.... I say all that when, in reality, the truth is that i'm a sapiosexual. yea, you got it, it's mind over everything. If there's a wicked mind, i'll date bigfoots older transvestite cousin. I really nailed that one home because my last 3 efforts were with people that had no smarts and were good in other ways but in the 80s for IQ, and man, maybe for a short bit, a few dates, but overall, no fucking way. I can't deal. Debra was low 80s, i know Christon tested at about 84 and Heidi, FFS, she had such a an overwhelming and strong personality I didn't notice until it was too late, fuck she was stupid. She argued with me one time, we were going to two days of a three day festival. Physically impossible to make it there the first day. It was in Eugene and i didnt get off work 'til 4pm on the opening day of the festival and the gates close at 7pm. NO way to make it. The tickets were something like $35 for one day, $30 each for two days, so $60, and $25 for each of 3 days, so $75. You following me here. It's cheaper per day if you get the three day pass but it's less expensive to get the 2 day pass if you're only going two days, $60 is cheaper than $75 even though per day it was only $25 per day for the big pass and $30 for the weekend. She Argued till I was blue in the face that it was cheaper to get the three day pass at $75 and go 2 days than get the two day pass for $60 cuz in her mind $25 is cheaper than $30. I came unglued. Finally after a full day of arguing my point, i gave in and said fine you buy the fucking three day pass for us and we'll get laughed at for only going 2 days. and sure as shit we picked up the three day pass at the start of the 2nd day and the ticket gal did a  dead pan, like wtf? just almost glared at us, trying to figure out if we really were that stupid, probably waiting for an excuse, cuz we just spent $75 for two days that were only $60 buying them one at a time. But Heidi was convinced that she was saving us money. I let her have that one. oh yeah you got me good i totally see your way on it, eye roll, and I mean Debra, yea she failed the 3rd grade FML, but i'll save more on that for a later time. Hope you have fun sloggion your way through this snorefest, lol, the last two were much better. I'll make up for it. I feel a good one coming on. Ciao for now. And hey, we gotta figure out a game plan for a few things: (1) the RV tour /* maybe i can meet you out there after a spanaway job, its in spanaway */ and (2) sushi and (3) I wanna start trying to come up with what we can do other than stand by and just let Monica flounder, I mean I know that's what you're supposed to do, but man I think we should give it a good go of pulling her head out of her ass. and then (4) One of these days I wanna re approach that bright idea I had, that long term financing one. It's worth at least talking about IRL AFK I don't wanna just bury that one in the sand because its awkward to talk about and difficult to come to terms with. It's definitely out of the box thinking. And eventually I gotta know because I have a plan B. That one will probably flounder but I already soft served it. I think it flopped there. But I can't really volley it until I know your official stance. So....

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Music, I love. Excuse me if I do this twice but I'm damned proud of what I've managed to accomplish with this silly little web mp3 player. It seems pretty Meh from the outside for sure, but you gotta realize after I created the program, all I  had to do was drop it in a folder of a bunch of MP3s and the app did everything else, from name  the page to make the track list, the headlines, all that. It took me less than 30 seconds for each of the next three sites, after the original app was created. It all started because I wanted a way to be able to share my Mommy and Psycho 78 and SoreLoser music with you. The latter two i created their artwork and stuff and the former I just really liked. Then somewhere amidst that debacle, i not only was able to dig up my CD Baby account to get at all the places where I was able to get the SoreLoser CD in to (that info is in the text on the page I made for their album, No Justice) but I was also able to finally dig up the Archive.org link to J&M Publishing's website (My company – we almost had a million dollar year once, just shy of it). That was important to me because it allowed me to re-animate some old sites that I had been reminiscing about: Murray's Rockpile, Hotpools, xxxpinions, and Jato Cafe. And I'm passing out and I'll have to finish this later. its 3am. Continuing...  I decided to throw in some more songs to the list down below, the top 100, lol, and I wanted to further test my media player so I dropped it in this folder of Erin Corday, a wonderful singer, and it worked! ( I went ahead and did a bunch more and made some improvements to the whole system, tweaked some css a little, and I'm bring in more properties to better flush out the ID3 data and use it dynamically in my page, but i made an index to the whole, this, and i embedded it back on the 404, at Buku Boogie, and I'll get around to doing that post one day, but for now, a list of all the music that I put up is here) Although, you may think I'm crazy but I'm gunna re-write the concept from the ground up. I created this AI personality that can code and well. So many of them I built were crappy and sloppy, just like my speech. BUt I started this one telling it to be minimalist and standards compliant, with slender, light-weight well comments code following best practices. Fucking slick. You still gotta watch it cuz It'll fuck stuff up and miss details because it wants to be fast but as long as you proof the code and go small steps at at a time, it works fairly well.

Briefly though. AI Generated art. I haven't done much lately but I have a shitload I'm submitting slowly because I had a backlog. Slowly but surely I'm starting to understand what good is and differently what people on the site hit like to. It's taken me a few months and fora  while there )a couple months lol) i was waking up and hitting it first thing, and sometimes not eating. So needless to say, it's taken me a long time to get some shit figured out. But I never had an art class. I started off college getting almost straight 100% marks, because in part that I was taking 21 credits when the maximum was 18, I was forcing myself to do nothing but work on school, and that aI did. And it showed. Well when I met my first girlfriend, I still carried those habits through but she convinced me that i should take one class, if it was going to be above and beyond the maximum as an art class or photography cuz i loved that. That was a great idea, as longa s I could maintain maximum credits for a full load, why shouldn't one be to take some photos or what not. Well I ran it by my mom and she flipped and said no fuckng way, not if you're taking money from me you're not. Now, up until that point my mom and my dad were both kicking in $300 a month for my college education and the rest I got grants and loans and subsidies. But mom said that and I flipped, i said well you can shove your money up your ass, I will make do without it because if I'm taking a full load, and no one takes more than that, but If i do and i want one extra class above a full load thats an art class I can. And I left and didn't talk to mom for almost two years. It took my auntie calling me and talking to me before I realized that having a relationship with my mom was more important than pride. But needless to say, my income went down, got cut in half actually and i started selling pot full time instead of working at the cafeteria and I never did take that art class. I was making more money ( i mean I had more money and payed more of y own way, I was doing well, super fat in fact so much so i almost got arrested, well I did but i evaded the sentence cuz they fucked up the warrant. The grow was was even supposedly built with someone's stolen checkbook. So that didn't cost me anything. Plus we took it out drinking and got loaded a few times. Just open up a tab, order some food with some drinks and your tab is open and then pay with a check leave a big tip and run. Or so I heard, I mean  I would never do anything like that but my roommate, Keith, he was evil) but at the expense of all my credits, i kept my grades fairly decent but got so lost in the drugs that i lost my way, I would have been making hypercolor shirts and all sorts of shit had i stayed with Roger Willet i the chem lab and kept discovering new crystals like this one.  So I never had an art class but I  self taught all about art, created a business and career on being a graphic designer, and now i took it to the creating programs and AI art and working with AI and creating good prompts to get it to do what you want instead of what it thinks is best is no easy task. Speaking of AI art, I've got three iterations of Sugar Skulls, the classic icon of the Dia De Los Muertos (October 31) for Mexicans. THey celebrate the dead on that day, and give them a day where they are honored and respected. I think all that is wonderful. I never did like my birthday but after I'm gone, throw a party for me on October 31. Please and Thank You. I like them all, with #2 probably leading the pack, I've got more better ones that i'll share next time. Also I put up one tornado, One of the better ones even though the purple flowers piss me off, i realize  now that the whole thing has too much yellow and that detracts.

Music I love. I already went into the albums I got posted in the first paragraph. The videos down below, I've got a  classic by Morphine, Sharks, truly a classic of theirs, if you listen to no others of theirs, and you should, listen to Sharks. Its moody and good. Fucking sax, drums and bass guitar. Classic, no other instrument, and a two string bass at that. 60 Ft tall is a good one by the Dead Weather, a supergroup with Jack White and the chick from the Kills, Alison Mosshart. I think I touched on them before, I should have put up Cut LIke a Buffalo or Die By the Drop, or Treat me like your mother,  but i chose this one instead. They're all pretty solid, i mean fucking jack white anyway, he's gifted and alison mosshart, fucking 'A' sister.