Helter Skelter

Preamble

 Here's the revamped Index page.. Today is Saturday, July 8th, 11pm (I'm just getting started, nah I went to bed—Now It's Monday, July 10, at 10, and I lost ya. ) Damnit.I just wanted to share some smoke and I thought since you'd slept all day but I guess you went back to bed. We'll catch up soon. I should shower soon anyway so that I can get to bed by 1am. I'm just finishing and its Monday July 17 at 10am.

We should really put some emphasis on sushi (but it would well I was gunna say it would be financially better to wait until next month but fuck that I just got a new credit card and as much as I hate breaking my own rule of never eat credit cards, I can make an exception and open this one with a nice meal. It may start off the card with a $100 tab but oh well. Lets do sushi) and especially I want to put a focus on touring the RV, I'm just saying. At least the RV. I am laying it your feet and in a text message the other day, today (July 8th) actually, i offered you $85 a month if you rented the RV from  me for $50. So that's $35 your way. I just need to be able to get outta here, here and there. I won't be a burden. Oh, and you gotta watch the first episode of Big Mouth on Netflix, too.

Helter Skelter

I'm all nice and showered now, and you could have been smelling this awesome dude but you're sleeping. Which I should be too, soon. I figured something out. Well first off, this is gonna have a little about you again. There's been a few 404s that way recently. My balls must have come out of that purse I was keeping them in. lol. So, I started up the dating app. And for all means I found someone that should be ringing the bell. She hits all the right spots. Shes easygoing, hippy, love mushrooms but man the flag ain't flying and that has been bugging me. Why are they not flying? I finally was able to put my head around it.  Don't you fucking get all twisted. It's hard to explain, so I'm going to blurt it out. It's because of who she's not. She's not you. That's the only thing that fits. And I'm just now catching on to what my body is saying.  I never have before been able to catch the cues of what's going on. Trying to be intuitive is crazy hard, but I think i'm getting better at it, well, I think I nailed this anyway. And I got knots in my stomach telling u that. Helter Skelter is right. I'm getting tired now. that took a lot out of me. i'm going to bed. I'll pick this up tomorrow. Or the next day.

And I'll leave it at that.

I'm leaving all that there. I re-read it and it's a little intimidating to have it out on the line like that, but i seem to be in this thing where i'm going to be honest no matter the cost. lol You know what I should do is just go grab you one day and, kicking and screaming, drag you to sushi. I get the feeling that its the only way to get you to go. Once I get you out the first time the rest will be easier.

Briefly

Drawings.

I thought the frog was cute, like a blue eyed gollum. I called the middle one trauma, representing the pain of ptsd. And the other is  Mind Blown. They were not liked.

 Music, I love. 

I think Puya is a great song by a spanish metal band, it's got some cool rhythm. And the other, Window Shop for Love, is a classic by Greg Sage's band, The Wipers. The band that in the early 80s, created the sound that would become grunge in Seattle. Nirvana takes influence from them as does Mudhoney

Current Work.

I got tired of resurrecting and fixing old sites. I did a handful, the easier ones with more data available. Maybe i'll try some of the harder ones when i need a break, but for now that's it. http://libertad.strangled.net or https://sales.bukufungi.com/ they both goto the same place.