A Couple's Things

 Here's the index, so you can see the reading you've missed :-P. Today is Sunday August 27 at 11pm. Ha! 

I have some thoughts

• I may have been a little to harsh last time, I am not sure. For various reasons I don't really think you're anywhere close to reading them so that pretty much opens me up to be more straightforward and I pretty much think that's what last week was about. Plus I sorta had to hear myself say it out loud in an effort to fully get behind it

• It's funny. There's a huge difference in the things that I get in my mind to say to you compared to what i actually do end up saying or going through with. It's like... I'll wait eternally for the right spot, falsely thinking that timing really matters that much, that depending upon my segue into whatever topic that your answer or how well you receive it will be based upon that segue. Then other times, I'll say it in my head or remember that I wanted to talk about something and think oh thats totally stupid, don't do that, and I'll skip out altogether. And that is probably a good thing. See, I sit here all by myself for long periods of time, in my head with no connection to reality and I can get ideas that are pretty well—  let's say just as detached from reality as I get. And thats pretty far. A classic example would be the SWIM conversation that I think I've now eternally shelved. Basically I had some ways in which i thought that you may be interested in to earn a little cash and they were based in, well, one example would be that we could watch porn together and talk. I think that beyond the nudity (and I mostly like fake reality tv like stuff) its a fscinating topic. Ive got one series that I've been watching since 2012 and there's lots of conversations regarding it that I habve yet to have. Plus to find out what you like, cuz you seem like someone who would have an opinion. Nah, I couldn't do it, I had to redact it. We'll just leave it at what i've already said. Addendum: 9/15-3am— I have had had a change of heart. I think Ican I think I should I think I will. But not here. I was thihking that if i dont ask the questions, i'll never know the answers. Maybe, you'll surprise me. Hopefully you will. To some degree, I hope you will because it would hange the dynamic and for me it would add to it, but to some people i think it wiould just chage it laterally.  BUt I have to be honest. And let's face it, I have tried most of my other ideas. This is engaging. It's niche. Not many people could rise to it or would. We'll see whst your response is. Don't let it change things in any way other than this is another facet. This will be my second attempt to broach the subject and the first time you didn't get it, you thought i was dis'n you when i was complimenting. I!'ll try it again.... in person.

• I think I'm going to shelve the remake of your site. it was way fun to do, i'll finish it so it can be presented. But in the end, g-sites just makes the whole coding for mobile and desktop concept way easy and I cant compete I cant get as creative with g-sites or as colorful but i'll have to deal with it. I basically spent the month of august trying to recreate the menu and cant get it as smooth. heaven forbid that you'd want a change and it would take forever.whereas the way it stands i can whip out any change in seconds. almost without thinking. I haven't made up my mind yet, but almost. It was fun to do. I caught up on ten years of html.  That was worthy. You'll be the first to know if i throw in the towel. Then again, upon further reflection, maybe I'll just shelve the unnecessary navigation and keep the site, or at least show it to you. It's still a little over the top as far as what you probably want or need. And my style totally doesn't mesh with your clientele, I think they'd appreciate something a little more reserved.

• Back to the other topic. Some of the disconnect comes from the fact that I live in my mind and in my mind ive been able to tell you these things. But since you don't know them, its difficult if not impossible to gauge what your response may be and without that gauge, i'm totally reticent to go forward especially without caution

• Well, its 2am early Thursday morning before your birthday. I should get to bed. I'll try to crank out some thoughts on your birthday and stuff before I wrap this up but I cant do it tonight. What I can do is tell you that I got you some presents. Some gluten-free treats. The trick will be finding the right card. And I don't really have much time to do it. You'll get one though. Your ol' man should get you one although I fear he wont. That's part of the reason why I'm putting the effort i am into this. I learned too late in life that girls and especially wives, mothers and sisters get presents. Boys? Meh. But girls yea, you get them one. He should know better. Anyway, I'm out.

• Well, I went back through and I don't really have that much to add. I do hope you have time for the cheesecake at least. I originally intended upon doing cheesecake Friday and Emerald Downs on Sunday, but it seems as though you've kind of put the kobash on Emerald Downs, and I dunno, maybe cheesecake as well. I'm gonna be seriously bummed if that cannot happen because I think you'd like it, and I wanna give you the treats I got ya.  Only time will tell. I don't thinkn camping is going to happen. Friday and Saturday are the only warm days this weekend and everybody and their dog will be hogging up all the campgrounds and the unlicensed camping spots go even sooner. I'm interested to see how tomorrow goes. It's 11pm on Thursday the 31st, and I'm gonna put this one to bed as the last one of August, which is only four this month. I would say the pace is slow enough so that you can read them again without getting overwhelmed.