The Gnu Way

Sure, I could talk on the microphone but that's loud and its harder to edit. I found that I was getting slower and slower and slower on my page creation, to the point of almost stepping backwards two steps for every step forward, so I needed a break. And even though its the same program its a break, it was betting monotonous, I was having to find waterfalls names using reverse image searching, memory and gps tagged photos, and then apply that to pages that were detailed views of images that were already up. Doing this, however, is therapy. I hoard photos and now I get to know them intimately, reliving them, discovering them, criticizing the photos, and its like when a hoarder goes through to clean their house and they have to touch everything. Its good therapy for me. So I shouldn't be bored but Im getting tired, i slept little the day before and none last night, and so im kinda loopy but whatever

actually a lof of today was spent trying to get the AI to create something cool for me, I wanted a steampunk mercenary check dressed like a  cross between daisy duke and lara croft meets terminator, it didn't happen. You can see below as close as i got right below. I also did some evil stuff, including a not laughing clown. 

Oh and I got to put tom in his place good and hard, its too bad he didn't read any of it. He keeps goiing going about, and he found a public speaker to back him up, about how the relationship with his ex crumbling was her fault for not speaking up so he could correct her wrong ideas and set her and the relationship straight and i countered with what if she was speaking, and the whole time, but he wasn't paying attention, i brought up examples on how he spent 2 hors belaboring this oint yesterday and introducing me to a place that i had grown up in and lived in and driven through as a job for once or twice sa month for years, texas, but he kept repeating details and showing pictures and describing things that i knew about and i reminded him that we had gone over this and i knew that and yes i have been there and yes actually washing has places like that so does the rest of the world but yet he kept explaining texas to me and dude i lived there, I've been to new brauensville, been grown up in houston, fuck I've lived all over and he knows this or I've told him before and i got today to throw that in as evidence that people all the time talk to him and he doesn't pay attention, cuz especially he went off on how speaking is the key to communication and i blew up on how listening was more than half of communication and most of the rest of communication was actions not words and i went off on how my friends couldn't stand that they couldn't day dream around me cuz i would pay for a  trip, i brought davo to central america to thailand to al over the usa,we went on a 12 state brewery tour cu cuz i was sick of them talking about how bla blah and i dove to all the national parks instead of looking at them on on the internet and i finished the whole thing with most people look at porn on web sites and talk about it and not me, fucking talking is stupid living is the key i went to the clubs and fuck watching orgies i went into them and i was all action and no words, i dot brag about that shit, but i just went and did stuff, i lived i didn't pontificate about living and i made some other points and just crushed his arguments all to hell, and it felt good and he didn't read it cuz two hours later he said "yea thats good stuff, hey..." and went into his question and i answered the question with a reference to a document i had made for him and said its as pint number two on his computer under the notes app in the note i had shown him was where to find the answer i just gave, and that put him in his place to about not paying attention. but he didn't pay attention to all that so he didn't learn anything, such is life. eventually persistence will pay off.

So I meant what I said the other day. If you have nothing else going on, take this time in your life and live a little. having fun is free. or it can be. i'll keep trying to drag you out just to get you outside. i think maybe you've forgotten what it feels like to live and to have fun and to smile spontaneously A couple times i've caught a glimpse of that smiling inside wanting to come out but the life you've surrounded yourself with soon overshadowed and took over. and i tell ya it doesn't have to be that way. based upon your ability to stick through your vows i know you have what it takes to see something trough. make it a point to do something for you. and not just fun substances, but something else, go drive a road you've never been on, just because, you will thank me for pushing you in this area. You've convinced yourself that the rut you're in is the best and more highground and the only way but i tell you its not. put number one out front for once and not just the relationship but YOU make YOU important because you deserve it and you are important. you are worth the effort to make yourself happy and damnit if no one else can step up to make you smile take it upon yourself to smile at least once a day.you need to start taking responsibility for your own happiness and well being and smiling a little and doing you is part of that. fuck i mean go out that little path a ways and rub one out real fast, the rush will be worth it. what you're doing is not all you can do is what i'm saying. if you don't start living you may never get many more chances. put yourself first, everybody else is doing it, so should you. See i used to never put myself first. I was a people pleaser. always putting everyone else's priorities in front of mine and eventually i was lost without any direction and i was miserable. i've had to learn how to live my life on my terms doing what i want because no one else is out there making me happy or even trying and fuck all you i wanna be happy, so i do it all for me, i throw my own bday parties i have all my holidays by myself ad i please me and i found that the more i live by my own rules pleasing myself the more i find that there snot enough time in the day to do it all.we can take that dmt and goto the top of rock candy mountain or around the ridge in this place i know and sit out there and take some puffs and watch the universe shatter into digital splinters jump right in with both feet, get a a big one out of the way, man its cool, ain't nothing like it and i was a mushroom grower and an lsd salesman, i was poppin' ten strips of high quality silver crystal and champagne crystal lsd we would buy grams of it and i've taken my share but nothing s as fun and easy going and as much of a joy ride quick trip on the roller coast boom you're gone and boom you're back. its fun. i've pissed myself from smiling so many times, literally wet my pants, smiling the whole time not caring. 

Then we'll get some place that's quiet and goto the dextroverse (I hope you read that link i gave you, i'll have to put it here again for you so you can read it. its worthy. In fact <http://www.dextroverse.org/wiki/plateaus/> start down at plateau 2. we wont go as far as we can, i don't think you want that until you know what its about. its one hell of a ride. oh boy. we'll get somewhere where you can feel safe and comfortable, heck we can get a cheap room somewhere fora  night or a tent maybe or the pads i my van ora  blow up mattress in my van (no funny stuff cross my heart) and then we'll do that just so you can break out of your shell and do something different. i think we weight roughly the same so we can each do the same amount, and i'll be right there with ya, we'll gp straight for the bottom of the third plateau. we'll talk our way through it and get to some meaty stuff. i think with how direct you are you could do me some good. it'll be mutual i'm sure. it'll be an experience you will always have with you, you'll remember it just like you will with your first dmt trip if you take 2 or 3 big ones man its fun may as well get it while its here and g for it, live a little, L-I-V-I-N. thats what its all about.

i think i've covered my bases here and made my point. the offer stands if you wanna get out for tomorrow its 420 and we can go chill with my tacoma buds, i can show you the house i owned, and go hang out with Myk & Paul. They're good people. i've known paul shit since 1985 we were best friends back then and we're still pretty good friends now and that was almost 40 years ago. myk, man he knows his music, he's a metal head, good people, it'll be worth it for you to get out and push the envelope a little, just do something different.

I went ahead and put some youtube links down below the pictures here. and right below this article i put a few links to some content here on this site, distractions is my photo gallery, fungi photos are what it says and the other is all about amanitas. feel free to poke around but don't feel obligated. just get back to me if you are interested in going to tacoma tomorrow, i'll pick you up and chauffeur you back. it'll be fun, different, all that and more. cheers. oh and i'll figure out how to put this behind a passcode for a  little more security, but not now, now is food. ;)